Did they tell you, you should grow up
When you wanted to dream
Did they warn you, better shape up
If you want to succeed
I don't know about you, who are they talking to?
They aren't talking to me

I'm higher than high, lower than deep
I'm doing it wrong, singing along

Did I ask you for attention
When affection is what I need
Thinking sorrow is perfection
I'd wallow 'til you told me
There's no glitter in the gutter
There's no twilight galaxy

Go higher than high, ooo
Lower than deep, ooo
Keep doing it wrong, ooo
Singing along, ooo

I'm higher than high, ooo
Lower than deep, ooo
Doing it wrong, ooo
and singing along, ooo

I'm alright, c'mon baby
I've seen all the demons that you've got.
If you're not alright, now c'mon baby
I'll pick you up and take you where you want
Anywhere you want
Anywhere you want
Anywhere you want
Anything you want

I'm higher than high, ooo
Lower than deep, ooo
Doing it wrong, ooo
And singing along, ooo

Higher than high, ooo
Lower than deep, ooo
Doing it wrong, ooo
Singing along, ooo

Ooo
Ooo
Ooo
Ooo

Why did I do it?
What did it get me?
Scrapbooks full of me in the background.
Give 'em love and what does it get ya?
What does it get ya?
One quick look as each of 'em leaves you.
All your life and what does it get ya?
Thanks a lot and out with the garbage,
They take bows and you're battin' zero.

I had a dream.
I dreamed it for you, ____.
It wasn't for me, ____.
And if it wasn't for me
then where would you be,
Miss ________?

Well, someone tell me, when is it my turn?
Don't I get a dream for myself?
Starting now it's gonna be my turn.
Gangway, world, get off of my runway!
Starting now I bat a thousand!
This time, boys, I'm taking the bows and

everything's coming up Rose!
Everything's coming up roses!
Everything's coming up roses
this time for me!
For me! For me! For me! For me! For me!
For me!

Almost there...

Refusing to purchase another monthly pass will force me to ride my bike. Yes. The last two days have had lots of sweating. I've found out that a bike with tires for mountain biking will really kick your butt quickly. I have been huffing and puffing from my apartment to work for the last two days while my fellow bikers wiz past me with their skinny street tires. I'm hoping that I can soon switch out my tires but until then I guess I'll sweat.

Fixed my resume. My steady checked it. Now is its en route to my, well... the woman helping me find a job.... career adviser maybe?? Now I guess I just have to be patient and a job will arrive and I can leave Madewell in the dust. Cute clothes, yes. Career, NOO!

I can't think of anything better than a lazy day with someone you care about. Today was a partial lazy day with the steady. He met me in the Commons and we laid on a blanket and just enjoyed each others company. I can't wait do have an entire day dedicated to this specific thing.

Tomorrow, lots of work and sweating. Tonight, shower and sleep. Thursday, a day of fabric shopping with my favorite Jew.

Inhale

It has been a good couple of days.

Saturday, Revelry made its debut. I was honored to be in it. The concept was amazing, garments were beautiful, and I have high hopes for her future. The show was incredible but so bittersweet. I know that with in only a couple of weeks she'll be off to Philadelphia to have all sorts of adventures. I will miss her terribly. I'm so happy for her but so jealous at the same time. I wish for adventure and travel but have never had the ability to go to the fantastic places that I long to go for.

Sunday. That was an early day. The after party of the fashion show kicked my butt and I kinda wanted to sleep all day but my steady picked me up at about 10:30 and we spent the day together. I was full of the outdoors, ice cream, window shopping, and relaxation. I really do love to spend time with him. I can't believe that in a time in my life where everything is going wrong, I have someone to hold my hand and tell me everything is going to be okay... even though it might not.

Today. Relaxed till about noon by watching a movie. Then decided that I should get my day started and went to the Temping Agency. The visit went very well. I just need to finagle my resume to make it more office friendly and the woman said she'd hopefully find me a new job. I need it badly. Then I worked at my promotional job and got to get some exercise by riding my bike. Now my legs hurt and I fear for tomorrow.


It seems that lately I would love to run from my life and go hide in a place where no one can find me. Erase all my debt to Sallie Mae and just live in an home, not just an apartment. I wish to someday be one of those people who can actually be relaxed about money and not worry about crazies in her life. I don't think its a very far fetched idea. But then again, I have been wrong before.

Exhale.