I need to catch up....

I always set so many goals for myself and then slack to the up-teenth degree. So much so that I feel like I'm being left behind in my own life. My good friends from college are moving up and out and I am in the biggest rut of my life.

What to do? What to do?

Some things I'd like to start doing again:

Painting
Drawing (Charcoal babe)
Designing... and just creating in general.

I was to start a new chapter in my life.
I need to find a better job.
I need to do things for me, that make me a happier person.

If you didn't already know... I've said that before... but this is the first time I feel like I can really change my life. I have been too caught up with making other people happy and comfortable. What about me? Why do I push my feelings to the wayside??

"If you're friend said 'Hey man! It's my birthday! Get a tattoo of a hot dog!... Would you do it? NO!" --I heard that on the T today...
Even though is a particularly weird reference, it spoke to me. Why always make others happy if your not happy, right?

My newest goals:

Save up for a new camera.
Find a new apartment
Start designing... details later
Make a change, for me.

Time to stop....
Time to start.